I have one rule for designing: I have to enjoy it. I have to enjoy the idea, I have to enjoy the process of making it, and I have to enjoy the finished project. I believe that knitting should be charming and enjoyable, and I believe it should result in something that you or someone you care about will like and use. Sometimes I get swept up comparing myself to other designers, though, and I get distracted from that rule.
I've had this yarn for a while, and I've played with a couple of different ideas for it. I had one idea that I was pretty sold on-another cowl and infinity scarf, straightforward and pleasant to knit, very much "me," and stemming from an inspiration very close to my heart.
Then I started second guessing myself. I thought, "I should try a new construction that is really overwrought and more difficult than it needs to be." I got swept up in overthinking everything and I forgot my one rule and I started something that was absolutely not me and I resented it.
After fighting with it for a couple weeks, I frogged it and cast on for my previous idea, and it has been a completely different experience. I am enjoying this so much more, and it feels more right than whatever I was trying before. It's difficult-so many of us struggle with perfectionism, and then to take it a step further and question what in fact makes perfection can be paralyzing.
It's so easy for me to remind my friends that no one else can make the things that they make, and that even when what they do feels inferior, it has value and merit, but it's so easy for me to forget that about myself. It feels so good to really be working on a design again-now that I'm feeling newly focused and I've turned this project around, I couldn't be more excited for the rest of the things I have planned for this year.