I've been struggling a bit with today's post. I've mentioned this week that I've been doing some thinking and re-evaluating, which means right now in the aftermath of all that, I'm doing some settling. Not settling in terms of accepting something I find less than fulfilling, but settling in terms of allowing myself to be comfortable with things the way they are. I'm happy with my life now, but for whatever reason, I feel a bit unsettled, if that makes sense, so I'm working on that.
I know I've mentioned feeling rushed the past few weeks, and I'm finally getting over that. I need to take some time to slow down a bit, and I think that will help. This week has been very productive, but it also feels really relaxed. I finished two of my WIPs this week, and instead of feeling like I've just checked two huge things off my to-do list, I feel like things are just progressing as they should. Things get knit, and things get done, and we move on, and everything is as it should be.
Part of it may be the change of season. I always feel off-kilter when things start heating up-I'm a cold weather girl through and through, and warm temperatures unsettle me. But I've been taking things slow, and finding the good. I got my hair cut this week, which I needed dreadfully. It's so much lighter, and that's a lot of less physical and psychological weight to carry around going into spring and summer (hey, hair gets heavy!).
I don't know how long this "slow mood" is going to end up lasting, but I definitely need it. I sometimes get so wrapped up in the doing of things that I don't listen to my own internal cycles and rhythms, but everyone needs to slow down once in a while. March ended up being a pretty busy and intense month for me, so it makes sense that April needs to be more scaled-back. However things work out, I'm planning on a slow and restful weekend.