Well, hi, friends. It's been a while, hasn't it?
I made it through my third semester of library school, all the winter holidays, and a quick ER vet trip (Lee Lee busted her eyelid on the coffee table, she's fine) and I'm looking kind of trepidatiously at the next six months.
In two weeks I'll start my final semester of library school, and sixteen weeks after that I'll be done. I'll have my master's degree. That's...huge. I don't know what job I'll have this summer, or where I'll be living, and it's a very intimidating feeling.
I've never really liked change, but I'm at this transitional period in my life where I need to go through some major changes to get where I want to be. My therapist says that this is a "growing time," and that it will be healthy for me. I'm trying to believe her. (I'm sure she's right, that's why she gets the big bucks, but it doesn't mean I have to be happy about it.)
I've toyed with choosing a word the past couple years, but this year it came really easy to me: Growth. A bit on the nose, perhaps, but I've spent a lot of energy over the past two years working on my education and my mental and physical health, and I've done a lot of that "invisible" growth—strengthening my roots and building up momentum—and soon I'll be ready to shoot out some new leaves and flowers. It's weird to know that I'm coming up on the end of a project that's taken most of my energy for almost two years
As afraid as I am of the changes facing me this next year, I'm also hugely excited to see where I end up and what this next stage of my life will look like.
I can say that I feel more at home in myself now than I ever have before, and that makes me hopeful
In an effort to not put too much extra pressure on myself, I think I'm going to commit myself to checking in here monthly for now. I'm also not committing to designing right now, but have two patterns with my tech editor right now, and I'll pop in to announce those here when they go live. I have some sketches in my notebook, and I've mentally assigned yarn to them, but we'll see when they get started. At the beginning of library school, I had high hopes for how much sample knitting I'd do in class, but it turns out that grad school is mentally exhausting, and I'm finally accepting that and taking all the pressure off.
I suppose you'd like a picture of something knitterly. This is my mother's xmas sweater, which I started mid-October and finished three days before xmas. She had bought the yarn a couple years ago, and approached me in October about knitting her a sweater with it for her gift. It's the Natural Cardigan (Ravelry Link) by Christina Körber-Reith, and it really was a pleasant knit.